corruptorofmorels asked: I've dealt with suicidal ideation for 4 or 5 years and I've never had a name for these feelings of hopelessness. I suppose I still don't. But your comics and some of the recent comments... I feel them, and I don't feel so alone. Thanks.
Thank you for the kind words and please take care.
baraceratops asked: One of the worst things about my depression isn't just that it makes me sad, it makes me mean too. It seems like I get more and more cynical and bitter with each passing day. Just today, my boss took me aside and told me that I needed to improve my performance, but that was okay since I was still kind of new. It triggered an emotional episode that swung from wanting to kill myself to wanting to yell obscenities in someone's face and back again. Sometimes I worry that I'll hurt someone.
Again, there is not much else to say but see a doctor about this. If you’re afraid to hurt someone, you really should before your condition worsens. Good luck with your new job and please remember there is help
weekendhunters asked: Hey, do you have any advice for someone who gets depressed easily and can't get rid of it easily? I'm prone to long episodes of depression, sometimes it lasts up to two weeks in a single stretch. I'm not on any medication, I don't drink or do drugs, although I tend to skip meals and then binge carelessly. Right now, I'm just depressed because of my lackluster grades, and wondering what to do with myself.
Unfortunately I won’t give advice beyond “get medical help”, because depression is an illness and requires medical treatment. There are all sorts of self-help books and natural remedies and stuff, but the first stop should always be a doctor.
magicalrae asked: I don't know how long I've had my depression, but I have a feeling it's been since I was about 6, which is when I had my first suicidal thought. I wanted to drown myself, and the only thing that prevented me from doing so is telling myself I was too fat to drown since I only float. Since then, I've struggled to understand my feelings even myself and despite being in therapy since age 8, things only seem to get worse as I age. But since I've found your comic I at least feel less like a freak.
You are not a freak, you are a sufferer of an illness. It’s important to remember that, because people who think they have an illness seek medical help, peyote who think they are freaks hide and don’t get the support they need. Hugs to you and good luck.
edit: peyote= people in Swipe-lish.
the-princes-tale asked: It's interesting to me how many people say college made things worse. For me it was the complete opposite. I felt independent and like I was actually doing something to better myself. Something "normal" people do. My depression got worse when I couldn't afford college.
I don’t think everyone has had negative experiences in school, but it can be an environment that triggers them. I think for me, a huge part of the problem in university was that high school didn’t prepare me properly. High school never taught the skills needed for success in university, such as time management, note taking, study skills, and so on. When I entered university, I got immediately overwhelmed and couldn’t even learn these skills, I had to discover them myself through trial and error. And on top of a huge course load that was too much. I think now there are more resources, and you can look these things up on the internet… but yeah, I felt I was tossed in the deep end and told, “now you gotta learn to swim.”
unspokensong asked: College made a lot of things worse for me, but one bright moment was when we were learning about depression and other mental illnesses in my Psych class. It was then that it really hit me that no matter how bad my depression got, I wasn't alone. It was a very comforting thought, however small (and after all, even small victories are victories.)
You’re not alone, but I understand how difficult it is to get rid of that feeling. Learning that this is a real thing is very helpful as it gives us a starting point to understand what is hurting us.
himemiya asked: When I went to college, I crashed. I had it all figured out in high-school - I was going to be a music major, I was going into music education. I'd been a little depressed before (turns out not everyone thinks of stepping in front of moving cars), but I couldn't leave my dorm room for days. I ended up leaving in the middle of my second semester.
That’s terrible and I hope you pull through this. I wish you the best in your recovery.
alchemistofpoetry asked: Going to college made things a lot worse for me. I got through it, yes but I feel as if it left a lot of damage too. But the only "good" (Idk how else to describe it) thing was that I finally saw a counsellor w/o my parents finding out. Ironically though I didn't go for very long cause of the pressure of hiding it. Idk, its just becomes a cycle. It helped very little but a little is better than nothing right? I wish there was more support for this type of thing. Btw thanks for all that you do :)
I made the mistake of telling my parents, so unfortunately it’s a good idea to think hard about who you confide to. I’m glad you got through it though. Thank you for the kind words,too.
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theinternetconsumesmylife asked: It's kind of interesting that so many people are talking about how going to college made them miserable. I totally get it. I feel like college is where I went to have my soul crushed.
I’m surprised too. This is the first time I’ve ever received this kind of a response to a comic. This one has touched a nerve, it seems, and now my nightmares about failing a course don’t seem so silly now, thanks to all the respondents.